The marriage was over. The buzz was over but one thing that still flashed in my eyes was that one Facebook comment. I didn't know whether I was being over reactive or I was being jealous but getting jealous from a random outsider was not at all a genuine thing. Shreyas was back to his normal routine and our long chats resumed. I thought I would lose Shreyas and those happy moments would end. But somehow I got them back. Happiness for me was spending hours talking to him. I didn't ask him about the girl commenting on his picture. I didn't want him to think that I was immature. I didn't want him to say that I didn't trust him. I trusted him blindly. I knew he was just mine.
One fine day when everything was back to normal, I and Shreyas were bust gossiping until Shreyas started out with something serious. I still remember our chat from that day.
Shreyas- Barbie, I want everything to be clear among us.
Neeyat- I didn't get you.
Shreyas- I mean, my past. Your past?
Neeyat- I didn't had any past. My life is like an open book.
Shreyas- Don't tell me you didn't had any boyfriend earlier? :O
Neeyat- Nope!
Shreyas- You might be kidding? Right?
Neeyat- No! I am seriously serious!
Shreyas- But I have an intense past. Since I've decided to live the rest of my life with you, I don't want to hide anything from you.
Neeyat- Hm...okay! So how many girlfriends you had? Uncountable, I guess! *chuckles*
Shreyas- Shut up Neeyat. If you are here to tease me, I am just leaving.
Neeyat- Okay Sorry! Tell me. I am listening!
Shreyas- Shall I show you something?
Neeyat- Sure!
After few minutes a message popped up. It was an attachment of few pictures. Beautiful girls they were! I was offended to see them and I thought why Shreyas had sent me all those pictures.
Shreyas- All these pictures are of the girls that I had ever been with. I never thought that one day all of them would hold no meaning to me. You are the only one Neeyat.
I ignored whatever he said.
Neeyat- Can you tell their names?
Shreyas- Hm...
The first one is Archita then it's Arohi, Ishita, Avantika, Nisha, Sahiba and that last one is Roshini.
Neeyat- Oh! I see, such a big list. So the list goes on...
Shreyas- No Barbie. It just ends at you. I love you. :)
Neeyat- hm..
Shreyas- Reply? >.<
Neeyat- I love you, too!
I was just thinking intensely about that large list that Shreyas held until he asked me something stupid-
Shreyas- Which one you found the prettiest?
Neeyat- All are pretty!
Shreyas- Dekha! My choice ;)
Neeyat- hm..
I was not in a mood to smile or laugh at his silly jokes. I was sad and I seriously didn't know why.
Shreyas- Tell any one!
Neeyat- Roshini. She is cute
Shreyas- Okay! But my favorite is Sahiba. She was the hottest among everyone.
I didn't reply to his text. I thought about "us" that we were few months back. I wanted the time to travel backwards and freeze. The previous days were good. I was happy with him. I never knew what would be it's after- effects. I logged off. I was feeling insane. I was talking to myself. I wished everything got alright. I closed my eyes and drop of tears flowed from my eyes...
"I am sad today. I don't know why. There is a stern expression on my face and I really don't know why is it so. Am I jealous? I think so. But why? I really can't figure out. I was happy when we were just friends but now? Nothing is left between us. For you, it might be a step above our friendship but for me our friendship was everything. At least then, I had an illusion that we were close. Today you shattered me. I want everything to be the way it was earlier. I want the old you. Can you return back? please? "
I opened my watery eyes and thought about whatever happened. Shreyas, who had been so loving kept me shattered. When I wanted him to pick me up he was busy talking about his choices. That was his past but still he had their pictures. I texted him-
"Do you have any picture of mine in your cell phone?"
His reply came instantly-
"No! All your pictures are there on FB. I see them."
I read and switched off my phone. I got all my answers.
One fine day when everything was back to normal, I and Shreyas were bust gossiping until Shreyas started out with something serious. I still remember our chat from that day.
Shreyas- Barbie, I want everything to be clear among us.
Neeyat- I didn't get you.
Shreyas- I mean, my past. Your past?
Neeyat- I didn't had any past. My life is like an open book.
Shreyas- Don't tell me you didn't had any boyfriend earlier? :O
Neeyat- Nope!
Shreyas- You might be kidding? Right?
Neeyat- No! I am seriously serious!
Shreyas- But I have an intense past. Since I've decided to live the rest of my life with you, I don't want to hide anything from you.
Neeyat- Hm...okay! So how many girlfriends you had? Uncountable, I guess! *chuckles*
Shreyas- Shut up Neeyat. If you are here to tease me, I am just leaving.
Neeyat- Okay Sorry! Tell me. I am listening!
Shreyas- Shall I show you something?
Neeyat- Sure!
After few minutes a message popped up. It was an attachment of few pictures. Beautiful girls they were! I was offended to see them and I thought why Shreyas had sent me all those pictures.
Shreyas- All these pictures are of the girls that I had ever been with. I never thought that one day all of them would hold no meaning to me. You are the only one Neeyat.
I ignored whatever he said.
Neeyat- Can you tell their names?
Shreyas- Hm...
The first one is Archita then it's Arohi, Ishita, Avantika, Nisha, Sahiba and that last one is Roshini.
Neeyat- Oh! I see, such a big list. So the list goes on...
Shreyas- No Barbie. It just ends at you. I love you. :)
Neeyat- hm..
Shreyas- Reply? >.<
Neeyat- I love you, too!
I was just thinking intensely about that large list that Shreyas held until he asked me something stupid-
Shreyas- Which one you found the prettiest?
Neeyat- All are pretty!
Shreyas- Dekha! My choice ;)
Neeyat- hm..
I was not in a mood to smile or laugh at his silly jokes. I was sad and I seriously didn't know why.
Shreyas- Tell any one!
Neeyat- Roshini. She is cute
Shreyas- Okay! But my favorite is Sahiba. She was the hottest among everyone.
I didn't reply to his text. I thought about "us" that we were few months back. I wanted the time to travel backwards and freeze. The previous days were good. I was happy with him. I never knew what would be it's after- effects. I logged off. I was feeling insane. I was talking to myself. I wished everything got alright. I closed my eyes and drop of tears flowed from my eyes...
"I am sad today. I don't know why. There is a stern expression on my face and I really don't know why is it so. Am I jealous? I think so. But why? I really can't figure out. I was happy when we were just friends but now? Nothing is left between us. For you, it might be a step above our friendship but for me our friendship was everything. At least then, I had an illusion that we were close. Today you shattered me. I want everything to be the way it was earlier. I want the old you. Can you return back? please? "
I opened my watery eyes and thought about whatever happened. Shreyas, who had been so loving kept me shattered. When I wanted him to pick me up he was busy talking about his choices. That was his past but still he had their pictures. I texted him-
"Do you have any picture of mine in your cell phone?"
His reply came instantly-
"No! All your pictures are there on FB. I see them."
I read and switched off my phone. I got all my answers.
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