Neeyat and Shreyas #Past [part- 11]

The marriage was over. The buzz was over but one thing that still flashed in my eyes was that one Facebook comment. I didn't know whether I was being over reactive or I was being jealous but getting jealous from a random outsider was not at all a genuine thing. Shreyas was back to his normal routine and our long chats resumed. I thought I would lose Shreyas and those happy moments would end. But somehow I got them back. Happiness for me was spending hours talking to him. I didn't ask him about the girl commenting on his picture. I didn't want him to think that I was immature. I didn't want him to say that I didn't trust him. I trusted him blindly. I knew he was just mine.

One fine day when everything was back to normal, I and Shreyas were bust gossiping until Shreyas started out with something serious. I still remember our chat from that day.

Shreyas- Barbie, I want everything to be clear among us.

Neeyat- I didn't get you.

Shreyas- I mean, my past. Your past?

Neeyat- I didn't had any past. My life is like an open book.

Shreyas- Don't tell me you didn't had any boyfriend earlier? :O

Neeyat- Nope!

Shreyas- You might be kidding? Right?

Neeyat- No! I am seriously serious! 

Shreyas- But I have an intense past. Since I've decided to live the rest of my life with you, I don't want to hide anything from you.

Neeyat- Hm...okay! So how many girlfriends you had? Uncountable, I guess! *chuckles*

Shreyas- Shut up Neeyat. If you are here to tease me, I am just leaving.

Neeyat- Okay Sorry! Tell me. I am listening!

Shreyas- Shall I show you something?

Neeyat- Sure!

After few minutes a message popped up. It was an attachment of few pictures. Beautiful girls they were! I was offended to see them and I thought why Shreyas had sent me all those pictures.

Shreyas- All these pictures are of the girls that I had ever been with. I never thought that one day all of them would hold no meaning to me. You are the only one Neeyat.

I ignored whatever he said.

Neeyat- Can you tell their names?

Shreyas- Hm...
The first one is Archita then it's Arohi, Ishita, Avantika, Nisha, Sahiba and that last one is Roshini.

Neeyat- Oh! I see, such a big list. So the list goes on...

Shreyas- No Barbie. It just ends at you. I love you. :)

Neeyat- hm..

Shreyas- Reply? >.<

Neeyat- I love you, too!

I was just thinking intensely about that large list that Shreyas held until he asked me something stupid-

Shreyas- Which one you found the prettiest?

Neeyat- All are pretty!

Shreyas- Dekha! My choice ;)

Neeyat- hm..

I was not in a mood to smile or laugh at his silly jokes. I was sad and I seriously didn't know why.

Shreyas- Tell any one!

Neeyat- Roshini. She is cute

Shreyas- Okay! But my favorite is Sahiba.  She was the hottest among everyone.

I didn't reply to his text. I thought about "us" that we were few months back. I wanted the time to travel backwards and freeze. The previous days were good. I was happy with him. I never knew what would be it's after- effects. I logged off. I was feeling insane. I was talking to myself. I wished everything got alright. I closed my eyes and drop of tears flowed from my eyes...

"I am sad today. I don't know why. There is a stern expression on my face and I really don't know why is it so. Am I jealous? I think so. But why? I really can't figure out. I was happy when we were just friends but now? Nothing is left between us. For you, it might be a step above our friendship but for me our friendship was everything. At least then, I had an illusion that we were close. Today you shattered me. I want everything to be the way it was earlier. I want the old you. Can you return back? please? "

I opened my watery eyes and thought about whatever happened. Shreyas, who had been so loving kept me shattered. When I wanted him to pick me up he was busy talking about his choices. That was his past but still he had their pictures. I texted him-

"Do you have any picture of mine in your cell phone?"

His reply came instantly-

"No! All your pictures are there on FB. I see them."

I read and switched off my phone. I got all my answers.

Neeyat and Shreyas #Days Passing [part- 10 (b)]

One month later...


"I am so happy," Shreyas leaned forward and hugged me.

I was bit surprised to see him so happy. At last I asked him the reason behind his broad smile and he told that it was his brother's marriage next week. It was a great family celebration time for Shreyas and I was happy to see him that way.

"Congratulations," I smiled and hugged him. He held me tighter and started to tickle me. I cuddled onto him and smiled.

"Don't congratulate me now. It's not the right time," he said.

"Why?" I asked almost puzzled.

"I am waiting for my marriage," he giggled and pulled my right cheek. There were magnificent smiles on our faces. We were happy together.

Days passed and Shreyas got busy with all the preparations at his home. He never sounded so happy after all, it was a huge celebration time for him. But, at the same time it was difficult for me to stay alone. Suddenly, our long chats and phone calls reduced. He hardly cared to text me and ask if I was fine. I felt bad to know that Shreyas didn't even bother to know if I was fine. Those days were bit depressing for me as he was not around. I wanted him badly but somewhere I understood that he might be busy with his family. Being a responsible son, he had to do all the chores.

One day, I casually logged in my Facebook and I saw him online. He was there but despite of that he didn't message me. I was numb and sad at the same moment. At last, I messaged him because I couldn't resist myself. I missed him a lot.

Neeyat- Shreyas? You don't even bother to message. :/

I waited for ten minutes and he didn't reply. I thought to myself if he was just ignoring me? I didn't message him again and logged off. It was disheartening to be all alone after so much attachment with someone. He wasn't there and I was all alone. I thought if Shreyas would have replied me. After two hours, I logged in my account and to my surprise, he was still online but didn't reply to me. I was so darn angry at him that I deactivated me account. I didn't wish to see him ignoring me that much.

And...then the day came when I thought about activating my account. It was actually shocking to know that Shreyas didn't bother to even message me. Shreyas was free from all his hectic work at home. I thought if he would have texted me back and would have missed me in the same way as I did. He was not online at that time but my news feed was full of his pictures. He looked handsome in them. There was one such picture in which he smiled like a cute little puppy. I smiled looking at him. I felt like commenting all nice things on his picture. I opened the comment box but as soon as I opened it, I saw a comment on his picture. It was-

"Sooo...cute ^_^"

The comment was by someone named "Sana." As soon as I saw the comment, Sherlock Holmes in me popped out. I checked her profile and read about her. She was not from any of his Alma mater. I thought to myself  "What if Shreyas added her randomly?" I saw her pictures. None of the pictures were of hers. Her timeline was full of love statuses and every status of hers had a comment by Shreyas. I banged the keyboard of my laptop and called Shreyas. He didn't pick up my call and I was filled with anger up-to my mouth. I was totally confused. Was I wrong? I was being just too possessive. I calmed down and thought positively. I trusted Shreyas. He was the best part of my life and I knew he would never cheat on me until that brutal day came...

Neeyat and Shreyas #Days passing [part- 10 (a)]

All my days with Shreyas passes smoothly. We mostly spent our days chatting on Facebook. We shared our relationship and togetherness on Facebook. It was the only medium that held us together. I was in love. My emotions overflowed. I felt myself to be the luckiest person alive. Everything was too good. No problems, no fights and no backstabbing. Shreyas was mine.


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My phone beeped.

Shreyas: I want you there at Facebook in five minutes.

I logged in my account and to my surprise, there was an amazing post in my new feed. It said:

"For Someone..."

And it had a picture of that black check shirt. A wide smile condensed on my face. Along with that smile were those little drops of happiness in my eyes. It was just two months that we had been together and it felt like years. Every moment of my life was special with Shreyas. He always tried to make me feel special.

Shreyas- So Barbie, how was it?

Neeyat- Aw.. :)

Shreyas- :)

Neeyat- The moment I saw that post...I was just too overwhelmed. Thanks a lot :)

Shreyas- I know that you love that shirt of mine.

Neeyat- Of course I do! :D

Shreyas- More than me?

Neeyat- Yeah! :P

Shreyas- :(

Neeyat-  Aw..
               I love that guy in the shirt more than the shirt itself.

Shreyas- Love you Barbie!

Neeyat- Love you, too!


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Just like that; days passed, months passed and each and every minute felt so special until ...

"Met with an accident. Now in DMC hospital." (Shreyas's Facebook status- 9 July 12)

That stupid guy of mine had an accident and he fractured his leg. I was worried but more than that I was annoyed. Shreyas was taking his injury so casually as if it was a public event. He was putting up status and his timeline was full of "GWS". I swear if Shreyas would have been there in front of me, I would have slapped him first and then hugged him tightly. I puked out my anger at him...

Neeyat- You dumb ass, what are you doig? >:O

Shreyas- Enjoying! :P

Neeyat- I feel like slapping you tight.

Shreyas- I'll be okay! Just a leg fracture.

Neeyat- When will you learn to take care of yourself?

Shreyas- You are there for that! :)

Neeyat- Stop flattering and tell me how that happened.

Shreyas- Oh that girl! :D I was on my bike and I saw her from behind. She was walking on the side of the road. I overtook her and turned my face to see her...She looked :* :* :* But, I was unaware about that SUV that came from the wrong side and it hit me. BAAAMMM! Uff! I couldn't see her face properly! LOL :P

I read and logged off . I knew that he was just teasing me but somewhere my heart ached. I loved him and I wanted him just to look at me. Only me. Whatever he said pinched me. I never thought Shreyas to be of that type. Watching out girls and wanting their faces to be display. That was disappointing. I started hating Shreyas at that particular time. Period.

My phone vibrated and it was a call from Shreyas. I was darn annoyed and disturbed. I felt like kicking him in his nuts but somewhere in the lost corner of my heart, I loved him. Between the mild sobs I picked up his call.

"Neeyat that was just a joke. I was just kidding. How could I feel like watching someone else's face when I have such a moon lit face to gaze upon," he said politely that dissolved all the tears in my eyes.

"Neeyat?" he called upon again.

I had nothing to say. Was that the guilt or the confusion? All I could interpret and say was,

"If that was just a joke then how come you had such a brutal accident."

"I...I don't remember," he said stammering.

I disconnected the phone and threw it across the dressing table. The perfume bottle fell off into thousands of pieces. My heart's state was the same. It broke into thousands of  undefended pieces.

It was the first time when I thought differently about Shreyas. I never knew that he wore a mask of a decent guy. He was same as other road side romeos. I hated him at that time. Just because he was at bed rest and was not in a healthy condition, I tried to forget the incident.

Neeyat and Shreyas # First official date [part- 9]

"Alright, what should I do with these spectacles? Shall I remove it? No. Nothing would be visible. Shall I wear it? No. I want to look beautiful. But, Shreyas had seen me in these spectacles before and he said I looked cute. Um, no. I'll buy contact lenses. I WANT TO LOOK BEAUTIFUL."

At that time, I was focused on only one thing-
"I had to look beautiful."

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I went at the nearest optical shop and bought myself a pair of contact lenses. I never knew I would be so much excited to meet him. I wanted him to look at me. To look into my eyes and see how much special he was for me.

His favorite colour was red. So, I managed to take out that rare red top from my wardrobe but suddenly I remembered that it was the same top I wore when he saw me for the first time. I thought about buying a new apparel. I went to see my wallet. It was as usual empty. I just had 500 bucks. I knew that I won't be able to look that ravishing with those 500 bucks.

I was all lost with bundles of clothes spread on my bed. I wasn't able to decide what to wear. Being a simple and an ordinary girl, I was never particular about my looks but this time I was mad at myself. At last I decided to wear blue check. "Check" had always been my all time favorite.

After finalizing all the stuff : hair accessories, bracelet, clothes and footwear, I finally cleaned my room and switched off the lights. My eyes were closed but nothing was blank. On that dark background was the smile of Shreyas. I knew that tomorrow I and Shreyas would actually feel something and that something was "oddness" because It was not an official date. I never thought that my first date would be like that. Well, it wasn't actually a date. It was just an in-person meeting. Keeping those creepy thoughts apart I finally drifted off to sleep.

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I woke up before my alarm rang. I was too excited about our meet that I forgot it was fresher's assembly at the college and I had to give a five minute long speech. Since I had few extra minutes left with me, I decided to write. I held a pen and a piece of paper but I stopped there.

"If I waste time writing this stupid speech, I won't be able to get ready," I said to myself. So, for the first time in my lifetime, "I", Neeyat, an A grade student closed the working stuff and started flaunting myself.

I went to the washroom and brushed my teeth. Not once. Twice. I wanted my teeth to look as white as pearl. Finally, I took shower with excess of shower gel. After coming back from the washroom I nearly emptied half the bottle of perfume on myself. I swear, I was getting insane. I left my hair open. I wanted the breeze to let my tresses flow.

Without even having my breakfast, I took the car keys and flung into it. I finally looked myself in the side mirror. I looked good but something was missing- that gorgeous lip gloss. It gave a pink tinge to my lips. I applied and smacked my lips. I was ready to go.

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I went inside the college gate, greeted my teachers and rushed to the auditorium. I really didn't know why I was in hurry. Almost three hours were left for my college to get over and still I was rushing for everything.

As I entered the auditorium, I could see girls (freshers) in full enthusiasm, ready to start a new life full of sunshine. Deja vu. I still remember I was one of them three years back. As the welcoming started, I was called upon the stage. I knew that I didn't prepare a speech but I even knew that I was not a dumb- ass that would trip on the stage due to nervousness. It was not the first time that I was on the stage. I remembered few things from here and there, I recollected them and spoke. I still remember the first line I spoke!

"If you stand for a reason be prepared to stand alone like a tree,
and if you fall on the ground, fall like a seed, that grows back again."

With all that regular ceremonies, everything was over. I checked my phone and it was 11:58. "Shreyas would be there in just few seconds." My heart started pounding and my hands sweating. Suddenly. my phone vibrated. It was a call from Shreyas.

"Hello?" I picked up the phone.

"Come fast! I am there," he replied.

I haphazardly rushed to the washroom, fixed my hair and went towards the exit gate.

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I could see him. That cute guy. Grown to perfection. Perfect height and perfect bones in perfect skin. I really didn't know how could he be so much perfect? I could see his back, his face the other side. I silently went towards him and patted him from behind.

"Neeyat!" he said and turned.

"Hey"

"Hey! How are you? You look so Beautiful."

"Thank you!" I smiled.

We stood there for five minutes with smiles on our faces. Suddenly out of blue. Shreyas held my hand and took me towards his car.

"Sit," he said and opened the door of his car.

I sat and he closed the door.

"Quite cute!" he said.

"What?"

"You, stupid!" he said and pulled my cheeks.

"Oh really? Thanks a lot!"

"You don't want to say anything about me?"

"Well Shreyas, you are just too perfect. What can I compliment a person who is made so perfect."

"I am impressed," he winked.

We both laughed. After few seconds of silence, Shreyas asked me to close my eyes. Initially, I was reluctant to do so but then I closed my eyes. I could sense him coming close. His heavy breath felt warm over my face. He held my face in my hands.

"This one for my cutest Barbie doll."

He said and planted a peck on my right cheek. I immediately opened my eyes and smiled at that cute thing he did to me.

I sat there in his car for long two hours. We talked about various things from here and there. At that time, I wanted the time to stop. I wanted to be there with him forever. That was the most precious time we spent together. That wasn't an official date but it was special for me. No matter how much I tried, I could never forget that day...

I was fully drenched into the love of Shreyas.