He and I

He stood there, one step away from me.
I tried to take a glance of him,
but my face covered with shyness.
I once again tried to look up at him,
and all I could see was his deep brown eyes.
His eyes gleamed with a ray of hope...
Hope of being with me...
Hope of spending the entire life with me...

As soon as he looked down at me,
his lips curved into a smile.
That smile, which had always made me go pink.
Those little depressions on his cheeks,
made my lips curve and I smiled, too.

Standing there, for those little five minutes,
felt like the most magnificent time of my life.
I felt like stopping the time, then and there.
But, that stupid time didn't...

All I could give thought to,
were those deep eyes and that melting smile.

Neeyat and Shreyas #First phone call [part- 6]

My legs were paining badly. I was so very tired. I didn't want to wake up. I gazed at the clock and to my shock it was 10:00 am. Suddenly I remembered that I had to call Shreyas. While this thinking process was going on in my mind, 15 minutes passed. Then I gathered all my nerves and tried to dial his number but something stroked my mind, "I don't have his number." I went laughing badly. That stupid Shreyas wanted me to call him but he didn't gave me his phone number. As I was grinning stupidly at this thought, my phone started to vibrate. It was an unknown number. I picked up, casually.

"Hello?"

"Who is this?" said someone in the male voice.

"Whom do you want to talk to?"

"I want to talk to someone who promised me that she would call me at sharp 10:00 am."

"Are you mad Shreyas?" my eyes almost popped out.

"What happened? Surprised?"

"Shut up! Tell me from where did you get my phone number?"

"OH MY GOD"

"What?" I shouted.

"You have such a sweet voice."

"umm...is it?" I blushed.

"Yes, you have. I was dying to hear your voice."

"Thank you"

"Pleasure is all mine."

"Now tell me from where did you get my number?"

"you would have never given me your number so I gathered it from somewhere. You know, I was dying to hear your voice and oh God, your voice...it's just out of the world. One more word from your mouth would kill me Neeyat."

"Tell me. Who gave you my number." I said in the most polite way.

"I get it from where we met first time, Your sweet childhood friend gave me." He giggled.

"How dare she she give my number to someone. I'll just tell her."

The moment I said that, Shreyas kept the phone. I was not able to understand that why he did that? Did I say something wrong? Then I tried to be little positive and thought that may be it was disconnected by mistake. Again negative thoughts came in my mind. If it was by mistake, Shreyas must have called again..right now.

I called Shreyas, he didn't recieve my call. I called him again but no answer. At the end I sent him a text message- 

"I am sorry Shreyas. I didn't intend to hurt you."

He didn't reply to my text. Five minutes later he called. I received his call and apologized.

" I am sorry."

"You should be."

"hm.."

"You hurt me today. I thought I was your best friend. I thought I was someone special in your life. You broke my heart Neeyat by saying that I am just "SOMEONE" I was dying to hear your voice and talk to you but I think you don't care about me. I am just a random person in your life. But that doesn't matter because I love you badly and I will continue to love you."

As he spoke this in full volume and speed, after a pause I could hear his heavy breath. He just said that he loves me. What does he meant by that? I thought we were just friends.

"shreyas?" I said meekly.

"Neeyat!"

" I am sorry."

"I love you."

"You are my friend."

"I want to be more than that in your life. The moment I saw you my heart pounded. I feel something for you. I don't know what it actually is but I do feel something."

"shall I talk to later?"

"What happened? Neeyat?"

"Shreyas please let me be alone for sometime. I will call you later."

"Okay bye and I will wait for you to call."

"Okay bye." 

I kept the phone. I couldn't believe that Shreyas confessed that he loves me. Was he actually in love with me or it was just a silly prank? For Shreyas, girls have always been a time pass but then why me? I never thought bout Shreyas more than a friend. I do felt something for Shreyas too but it was surely not love. I couldn't love him. Never.

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My whole day passed away and I didn't call shreyas. He even didn't call me up. I was bit satisfied because I couldn't face him. I didn't want to talk to him. People had a lot of opinions about shreyas. people used to say that Shreyas was a rich and a spoilt guy. 

Three days passed away just like any ordinary day. I had a peaceful mind without any thought about shreyas...

Neeyat and Shreyas #Are we really friends? [part-5]

I didn't go for my interview because Shreyas asked me. Why did I listen to him? Who he actually was? What he thought about himself? He was just my Facebook friend but I was so much concerned about what he says to me. Is this known as affection? attachment? what?

During school days I had a friend named Kriya. In fact, she is still my good friend. Those days me and Kriya were coming bit close. I used to talk to her and share things with her just like I used to do with Shreyas.

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As exams were over we planned a school reunion. We all friend were together. All my friends were gathered: Kriya, Gurman, Richa, Sargun and Geetika. It was a fabulous day. We all were going to be together.

I got ready to reach the venue. First, I saw Geetika sitting with Gurman and Richa. I waved at them. They looked at me and screamed loudly. I smiled widely as I saw them. I felt so fresh, my whole grade 10 journey came in front of eyes.It was the best feeling ever. After 7 days of bed rest and weakness, it felt really nice. Meanwhile, Kriya entered and gave me a warm hug. Sargun was behind her. Since school days sargun have been a good partner and a great companion, she always used to give me a motherly feeling. I loved her a lot. Gurman and everyone else were sitting on a side. I went to meet Gurman but she was as usual busy with her gossip. Gurman had been an angel to me. She used to help me and she was always there for me whenever i fell into any kind of trouble.

At that time, different views were going on in my mind. i was thinking about Shreyas. I was thinking how Shreyas took place of my every friend present there. I used to call him my friend but was he really my friend?

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We all went and sat together. Richa was a girl worth remembrance. She was my best friend during my school days. She was such a helpful friend. Meanwhile, sargun asked everyone of us to move towards the dance floor but I resisted. "I don't know how to dance" I sad her. She replied, "Oh no! Its fine. Come on." Kriya joined our conversation and asked Sargun to let her and me sit.

All of them went on the dance floor to groove. I and Shreya sat on a side. She broke an ice with me and started a conversation.

"So? How is your Richie Rich?"

"What?"

"Your Shreyas"

"Oh, he is fine."

"So now we all are just friends for you and he is your best friend."

"No. It's not like that. You all are still my good friends."

"Good friends? I thought we were best friends."

Kriya got up and went to bring soft drink for both of us. She came back and continued.

"Neeyat, I just want to tell you something."

"Tell?"

"I want to narrate a story to you. I hope you will understand through the story what message i actually want to convey to you."

"I will Kriya. Believe me."

"Okay, so here it goes...

Once upon a time there was a sweet little girl. She was so innocent that she was unaware about the cruel world. She made a shell around herself so that no one could see her in this world. Her little life was perfect in that shell. One fine day, a handsome prince knocked her shell and she let him in. They both were together and that innocent girl was very happy. She had a perfect life. It was just a happy little world. But...
that prince had wrong intentions. He was not loyal to her. He hurt her badly and broke that protective shell around her. At the end, the girl was left crying all alone...

So, did you come to know what i want to tell you through this story?"

"But Shreyas is not like that."

"You never know."

"Kriya what you want to say?"

"I just want to say that don't be so gullible and don't just start falling for him. I am your friend and I want everything to be perfect around you. It seems as if Shreyas is not a nice guy. Think about it."

Kriya left me alone. I sat there still, thinking about each and every word she spoke. Was she correct? Was Shreyas really a clean hearten person? Was he really my good friend?

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It was midnight. I was staring at the ceiling. My mind had so many questions regarding Shreyas. My mind was totally indulged in that story that I heard. So many questions but no answer. Someone said to me "listen to your heart." And then, I was going to listen to my heart...

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Next day I called Kriya. I talked to her about all what she said.

"Kriya, will you be a little straight forward?"

"I just want to say that STAY AWAY from Shreyas. He is not good for you."

"He is my friend."

"What kind of a friend? best friend? close friend? true friend? boyfriend? what? The truth is that he is your CHAT FRIEND. That's all. He doesn't care about you. You are nothing for him."

"Will you just shut up?" I screamed.

"Okay. I will. You are a changed personality now."

Soon after this she cut the phone. My eyes started watering. All I could do was talk to Shreyas.

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Shreyas- Where were you from last 3 days?

Neeyat- who cares?

Shreyas- what are u saying? I do.

Neeyat- stop pretending!

Shreyas- I am not. It's true!

Neeyat- Does not seem so. How can one care for a chat friend? 

Shreyas- You are not just a chat friend. You are everything for me. I love you!

Neeyat- What?

Shreyas- Call me!

Neeyat- Not now

Shreyas- You have to!

Neeyat- have you seen the tym? It's 12:10

Shreyas- Tomorrow morning, sharp 10:00 am...I want u to call me. Get that?

As soon as I saw his message, he went offline.

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It was 2:00 am and I was still awake. I had no clue about what to do? I was totally confused. Shreyas or Kriya? I didn't know what to do. My heart said that Shreyas was clean hearten but Kriya's story shattered me. I gazed at the clock. It was 2:15 am. I gently closed my eyes and tried to sleep. I tried very hard but could not sleep that night. Two opinions were going on in my mind. I didn't know why... but Shreyas was the only one whom I wanted to trust. I was cluttered with two thoughts going on in my mind.

Neeyat and Shreyas #Argument [part-4]

My final exams were over and I was totally free. My time mostly passed chatting with Shreyas. In the rest of the time, I worked out to get some job as I wanted to do something to add up my family's income. My father alone could not feed up my whole joint family. However, some financial crisis were going on. I knew that I was hardworking and would definitely get a good job. In mean time I got a proposal and I was called upon for a job interview at Chandigarh. It was something that elated me. My dream of supporting my family was soon going to come true. I felt responsible. This good news provoked me to tell Shreyas as well. I logged in my account as soon as possible and he was online.

Neeyat- Shreyas! u noe wht? it's a best day for me....do u have any guesses wht actually happened ryt now?

Shreyas- Wht? are u getting married? u got ur perfect match? :O LOL!

Neeyat - Oh just shut up! 

Shreyas- okay..sry! Just kidding :)

Neeyat- Hm..better now.

Shreyas- So? you were going to tell me something..

Neeyat- oh yeah. Actually I've got my interview call. And I am going to Chandigarh for job apply. 
               I hope I get selected. Competition is high.

Shreyas- wow! ^_^ Dat's really great. All the best for your interview and I wish you get selected.

Neeyat- Thank you!

Shreyas- Most welcome bacha

Neeyat- Will you plz stop calling me that? :P m nt a kid :/

Shreyas- Lol! Okay okay.. But It's fun :P I love when u get irritated. Anyways leave...what else?

Neeyat- No fun!

Shreyas- When are you going?

Neeyat- Next Monday!

Shreyas- only 5 days are left. Work hard!

Neeyat- Obvio! I will...m not lyk u :P

Shreyas- ohh Please :P I have my Dad's factory...

Neeyat- oh!

Shreyas- yo! :P

Neeyat- Whatever! :/

Shreyas- ERrr.. I hate this word ! >:O

Neeyat- I know :P Anyways, bye. No more wasting tym.

Shreyas- Oh! u think talking to me is wasting tym? :/

Neeyat- I didn't say that! Bye..

That day, there was a sparkle in my eyes. I started my interview preparations in full swing. I wanted that job. Whole day passed with loads of hard work.

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"Oh God! Neeyat you have very high fever," my Mother said while checking the thermometer. "How much?" I asked. "102" she replied.

I had very high fever and was feeling drowsy and weak. My whole body was aching badly and i even had some symptoms of common cold. My condition made me worried. I thought about my interview. Day after tomorrow it was my interview and I was lying on the bed half dead. Next day, me and my mother went for my check up. I had a widal test with positive results. I had typhoid.

I had mixed emotions of sadness and worry. I was sad because I never expected myself to be so weak. I was both physically and mentally weak at that time. I was even worried about my interview that was tomorrow. I asked for permission from my mother, She refused me to go but it was my dream. It was very necessary for me to go and give that interview.

One night before the interview I sat on my bed crying. Suddenly I thought about Shreyas. I logged into my account just to see if he was online but he was not. At that particular moment I missed him a lot. I felt like talking to him. He was my last hope who could help me with my problem.

"YAAyy!"I shouted as I saw the green dot appearing and Shreyas came online.

Neeyat- :'( 

Shreyas- What happened? 

Neeyat- Suffering from typhoid..

Shreyas- what? Why didn't you tell me?

Neeyat- uhm..

Shreyas- Oh god! Take care of yourself and GWS!

Neeyat- hmm

Shreyas- :(

Neeyat- now y r u sad?

Shreyas- I can't see u in pain.

Neeyat- Is it?

Shreyas- Yeah.. U've turned so weak but still you are giving me time. Thanks a lot.

Neeyat- come on! u r my frnd

Shreyas- only frnd?

Neeyat- best frnd :)

Shreyas- :)
               and what about tomorrow's interview? :O

Neeyat- oh! u remeber? 

Shreyas- obvio I do. Its an important day for u.

Neeyat- uhm! yea...m going tomorrow. I argued with mom and she agreed.

Shreyas- you are not going,

Neeyat- What? why? Its important for me.

Shreyas- and u r important for me.Get that? I've said u will not go means that u will not! Its final.

Neeyat- But...

Shreyas- Noooo

Neeyat- um! 

Shreyas- look! I can't see u in pain . you are not well and u r planning to travel. It will bring your health down. Don't worry u'll get another Job for sure. You are such a bright girl.

Neeyat- Hmm

Shreyas- go and rest now! Bye gud nyt

Neeyat- bye. gud nyt!

I logged off and lied straight on my bed. There was a sweet smile on my face. That smile was of faith and trust that I had upon Shreyas. Shreyas was becoming someone very close to me. I felt comfortable when I shared things with him. He was my true friend. That day's argument proved that how much concerned he was about me. He could not see me in pain. Shreyas became an angel in my life. He became my best-est friend. In my whole life, I never got anyone who would console me and argue. That day he argued with me for my betterment and I thanked God for giving me such a benevolent friend. I switched off the lights. I was thinking about shreyas...

Neeyat and Shreyas #Becoming FB friends [part-3]

It was like last-year-getting-separated-soon year. So, I just decided to make my account on Facebook. Those days Facebook was getting very popular, all thanks to Mr. Mark Zuckerberg. I was quite excited in using this new crazy thing. One of my friend helped in making my account on FB. Fifteen days passed after 7th December and I was a new comer on FB.

It was a lazy Sunday evening when I logged in my Facebook account. I had 12 notifications, 0 messages and 1 friend request. I was damn excited to see...who wanted to be my friend? (Come on, everyone gets excited, who knows it might be your crush?) I clicked to see the request. Once I gazed the request, my face went to a big capital letter "O." It was the request from the great, smart and ravishing "Shreyas Arora." My reaction was- "Shall I accept his request?" I heard people saying that you should stay away from these type of brats who usually change their Audi for different colors. "Oh God! What shall I do?" I Ignored the friend request.

I logged off my account and went to study. (Of course I had to. It was my last year of hard work at B. Tech.)

Five days passed just like every ordinary day. I did not log in my account. On 27th December I logged in and I just clicked on "accept." The minute I accepted the request, he was online. I thought "vehla." My chat sounds were enabled. I could hear a message come in my box. It was Shreyas saying "Hi." I replied him back. We started our chat. it went almost 40 minutes long when we finished with our introduction.

Shreyas, too was in his last year of BBA and was just waiting to join his father's factory. While chatting with him, I found him to be a nice guy (just a little bit). after those 40 minutes he said, " You were looking very pretty that day."

"Thank you" was what I replied. This cleared that he knew who I am, where I first met him, what my name is and how I was looking (pretty). I did not have any photo as a display picture. It meant he knew my name and everything.

After a while, I said him that I would talk to him later and I bid him bye. He replied back the same.

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Two days passed, I did not logg in my account and a person named "Shreyas" was on the blind spot of my eye. Again, it was a boring and a lazy Sunday for me, so I logged in.

Will you imagine...what I saw? Five messages from Shreyas. I was shocked. I thought to myself that why the hell he was so concerned? The messages were :

"where are you?"
"Are you fyn?"
"It's long time..you've come online"
"You there?"
"Hello?...you okay?..BZzz"

And moreover, he was online at that time too. While I was reading his message a new one from him flashed again. It said, "Don't you know, I was so much worried about you. where were you from last two days? Don't you know how tensed I got? Now will you please reply? :/"

I felt guilty at not logging into my account because Shreyas was actually very worried about me. I didn't know what made him worry that much?

I could not understand anything. Was it an attraction or it was really a concern?

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Days passed by and we became best friends. He used to tell me his problems and I used to listen them with lot of concern and attention. I was actually falling for him. He wasn't someone "ignore able." Shreyas was really a very nice person. He took 5 on 5 when ranked as a best friend. His care and concern for me increased day by day...

Neeyat and Shreyas #Guy with that black shirt [part-2]

I climbed up to see my friend. As I reached the terrace, she was sitting near the bon fire with all her friends. Her group was the one with all those rich brats. I was really very conscious to meet her along with her gang. But I had to gather my nerves to wish her and at last I did it.

"Yipeee," my stupid mind screamed fully elated.

While standing with her, my bull eye catched a guy who was staring at me. Yes, that guy was "Shreyas". MY SHREYAS.

He, too was a rich brat like others in the group. He was wearing well ironed black shirt with white check. It had been five minutes and I was thinking why the hell was he staring me?

Two things alternatively were going in my mind. First, am I that b'ful? Second, I knew I was not dressed nicely but at least, I wasn't looking that bad.

I couldn't resist myself, so I turned my face towards him. And...uhm uhm...what was I saying?
"OMG OMG OMG OMGEEE"

The way he smiled looking at me was like the best thing that would have ever happened to me. The question again came in my mind, "Am I that beautiful?" His smile was like one could not resist smiling back. I gave him a smirk. The party soon started. We all went down towards the lounge. "Hah!" after dancing madly I was damn tired and thirsty. I went towards the counter and asked the tender to give me a glass of mineral water and guess what?

Shreyas was standing just beside me.

"Arey? Just stop starring me?" I said more to myself. I wished to say him but his cute smile was the one that made me go topsy turvy. I just loved his smile. So, 7th December was the day when I first met Shreyas.

You might be thinking why this day makes me so sad rather it should make me happy?

P.S. Someone advised me about not to write about "clothes and stuff" 'cos no one is interested in knowing that. But sorry, Neeyat couldn't resist herself from explaining how her guy looked when she met him for the first time.

  

Neeyat and Shreyas #At Hot Millions [part- 1]

It was 7th December, 2010. The same date 3 years back. There was a feeling of the year ending and a new one starting in a few days. It was not so cold outside but a little pleasant climate that would need a simple jacket to shield yourself from the cold breeze blowing.

"Hot Millions," my favorite hot spot was the center of attraction that day. My childhood friend was leaving the country in a week. She organised a lavish party for all her college friends and I was the only one out from her group. it was little weird for me. I wasn't actually willing to go there but I had to. "Come on, she is your childhood friend, you have to go," said my heart.

it was sharp 4 p.m. when I got ready for the party. I wasn't really interested but there was no choice. I still remember what i was wearing. A simple blue jeans with my all time favorite red top. I love to be casual. Not like those with gucci shades and five inch razor heels. I neatly tied my hair at the back and puffed my perfume. Sweet. I was ready in just 15 minutes.

My dad dropped me at 5. I entered the lounge, rock music was playing. I could see hot guys and beautiful girls all around me. I was feeling very uncomfortable 'cos I was the simplest among all of them. "Oh, it's okay..simple living is the best!" I said to myself.

Now, I had to find my dear friend and wish her luck for her journey. I looked to my left and to the right, I couldn't find her. I slipped out my cell phone and called her..

"I am on the terrace," she said.

"Okay! shall I come there?"

"Yeah sure, my college group is there with me."

So, now it was time to climb up the stairs and explore what was waiting there for me... 

Neeyat and Shreyas #prologue

I won't ever forget the date. It was 7th December 2013. A great day for me but a very sad day for her. Sometimes, in our life we can never forget some things. Those things always leave a happy or a sad impact on one's heart. same was with Neeyat. Neeyat, a girl whom I never knew. She was just an acquaintance for me...

It was sharp 6 p.m. in my new Calvin Klein watch when I reached for evening birthday party of my classmate. It was a chilly weather outside. As I entered the grandly lighted basement of her house, I was elated. My favorite Taylor Swift music was playing. I stepped forward and wished my classmate a very happy birthday. Soon, I wished to go the rest rooms. I asked my classmate for the way towards the rest rooms. As I entered the closet, to open the door of the rest room, I heard a little sobbing. I didn't know who she was crying in the corner of the closet. 

It's my weakness, whenever I see someone crying, I cannot resist myself from consoling that person. I purred softly, "Hey, are you okay?" She replied...tucking her smart red check shirt, " Yeah, I am fine. I am Neeyat. I've come here with my cousin."

I have never seen any girl changing the mood so quickly but she was actually the one who did that...

"So may I know you?" she asked with a gentle smile.  "I am Anmol. I came here at my classmate's birthday," I said looking at her. "Oh! that's really good," she replied back.

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After a silence of hardly one minute, I saw tears oozing from her eyes. I was again surprised. In just a nanosecond, she fainted. I carefully held her just like my elder sister and make her lie on the bed. She was murmuring something. I couldn't make it properly what she was actually saying. To some extent she looked depressed. Her face told how much hurdles she had crossed and how much problems she must have faced.

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Just for a minute, I forgot that I was there for some occasion. It was Neeyat who held me with her. She opened her eyes slowly. I was looking at her continuously. Before she could say anything, I asked her "Love life, eh?" and a stupid grin appeared on my face.

"Love? Is that something that feels great but it is just a fake feeling for some months?" she said..almost feeling puckish.

I knew something was wrong with her . I asked her, "Come on, tell me? What is so wrong?"

Actually, I didn't expected that she would say something but she started telling me the whole thing. She sat on the bed joining both her hands close to her chest and saying, "This date is something that is bothering me from last two years...."


P.S. I am soon going to publish the next chapter that would be narrated by Neeyat herself. Stay tuned...